5 Disturbing Proofs That Harry Potter Had a Death Wish

This might sound strange at first, but many hints in the series point in one direction: Harry wanted to die, and it's a really creepy thing for such a young man.

But Harry's fate was not exactly kind to him as a teenager, and the more he learned about death, the more he wanted to go to the other side.

Here are five moments when we can clearly see his death wish or the reasons that solidified it.

Mirror of Erised

Growing up without parents and knowing they died is one thing, but seeing them so close yet so far at such a young age is just traumatizing.

Harry's deceased relatives whom he's never seen were smiling at him from the Mirror and gesturing for him to join them.

This is likely when his death wish starts to shape.

Patronus charm

Even when Lupin teaches Harry to use this charm, it isn't until the most desperate situation that Harry manages to produce a real Patronus.

It looks exactly like James Potter's Animagus form, and Harry is at first convinced that his father somehow saved him — and heartbroken to learn that the dead can't do that.

Resurrection Stone

Immediately after learning about the Deathly Hallows, Harry becomes obsessed with the Resurrection Stone. He talks about living with dead people like the second Peverell brother, and it scares Hermione.

When he actually uses the Stone, the first thing he asks is "Does it hurt?" — he's ready to die, and he wants it to be quick.

Sirius' death

After the death of Sirius, Harry literally tells Dumbledore to kill him to get rid of the pain and, most importantly, because then he'll "see Sirius again".

He's already willing to die to reunite with his family as he just lost his last close relative. Then, Sir Nick reveals to him that Sirius won't come back as a ghost, and it gets worse.

King's Cross

Hit by Avada Kedavra, Harry is between life and death, and on a ghostly train station, he meets Albus Dumbledore. The Headmaster explains that Harry can either go back or accept his fate.

Harry point-blank asks him if he "has" to go back. Not if he can or should, but if he has to.

Deep inside, he doesn't want to return: he has a lot to gain from dying, and he already knows that James, Lily, and Sirius are waiting for him on the other side.

In the end, Harry decides against it. He postpones meeting his family for decades to save the loved ones who are still alive.

But if not for his hero complex, Harry would've definitely boarded the train as it was his strongest desire for years by then.